Saturday June 25, 2011

I went in for my CD3 baseline ultrasound today for my 2nd IUI cycle and the news was great! Not only does my uterine lining look good, but I have 8 follicles!! This is double what I usually have so I am absolutely thrilled! Dr. Patel told me to not get too excited because they still have to mature but I can't help but be excited! I've never had that many follicles so I figure the chances are much better that one of them will work out!! So, great news on our way out of town. He left for San Diego right after the u/s for the weekend. The weather is great here and I can finally relax...ahhh!! I will be ready to start my Clomid on Monday and our next u/s is scheduled for 7/3 and hopefully IUI on the 6th if all looks well. Here's to our next cycle working!!!

Thursday June 23, 2011

She came today, hooray! I didn't think I would be happy to see my period come but in fertility world, you are excited once you know the test results because it means you can start another cycle again. So, I have bloodwork & ultrasound scheduled for Saturday morning before we leave for San Diego. I am praying and keeping my fingers crossed that this will be the cycle I get pregnant on. I am looking forward to our trip this weekend because we need to get away desperately. I just need to get away & get my mind off all this. On to the next cycle!

Wednesday June 22, 2011

I am officially not pregnant. Today is the day to test for sure and it same back negative. I am, of course very upset and sad today. I know the chances were very slim, however, I had a lot of hope. I thought we would be different, the lucky ones. Unfortunately, we are just another one of the statistics. Now I must wait for Aunt Flow to come so I can start a whole new cycle of drugs and another IUI. I just wish it would come so my torture would end and I can move on from this month!

Friday June 17, 2011

Unfortunately, I tested again and it still came back NEGATIVE!! I am so bummed. I know it's not over until AF arrives and until 16 days past IUI but nevertheless, I am upset! I have been using the Clear Blue Easy digital home pregnancy test and in my opinion, it is quite rude! It says either. "Pregnant" on "Not Pregnant" which in theory sounds perfectly logical and easily understood. As a woman going through Infertility, I believe it is a rude bastard!! Why can't it say, "No" or "not this time" or something else non-obtrusive. It is just so blatant in the "NOT PREGNANT" almost as if it's mocking me for even suggesting it. Maybe next time I will buy the test with the lines. One line you're not pregnant, two lines you are. That just sounds a lot nicer, don't you think? I am just keeping my fingers crossed, and praying the the big POSITIVE next week!!

Monday June 13, 2011

So it's been one week since my IUI and I just couldn't take the suspense anymore so i went to the store and bought a package of home pregnancy tests. I know it's too early but I just wanted to take a test to see. Well, it was a big, fat negative (BFN). I figured it would be this early but I still had hope. So, I have spent the rest of the day super depressed. Again, I know it's too early to tell but my mind is playing games with me. I have been really positive about this all along and now that I saw the stupid "Not Pregnant", I am doubting whether or not I could be. My cramps have been a lot worse today, almost as though Aunt Flow is coming. These cramps have been playing games with me, as well. I have been cramping since the IUI so I don't know if it's AF coming or if I am indeed pregnant? So, I just have to wait it out a little while longer to know for sure. I think I will test again on the 20th if AF hasn't come. 7 more long days!!

Saturday June 11, 2011

It's 5 days post IUI. I am very crampy, my breasts are sore, and I keep feeling twinges in my belly. I don't know if I could be pregnant or if it's just the hormones from the trigger shot. The side effects from trigger shot & the progesterone that I have to take everyday now both mimic pregnancy symptoms. It's really hard to deal with emotionally because it feels like I am pregnant but I have this question in the back of my mind if I could possibly be? I know Dr. Patel gave us such low chances for success so that's still in my head while I am trying to just visualize the baby and stay positive that it is indeed happening. I have been an emotional wreck and I just can't imagine having to go through this over and over every month. God, please listen to our prayers and let this happen for us. It's just so hard.

Monday June 6, 2011

It's IUI Day!!!! I could hardly sleep last night due to the hot flashes I kept having all night and from the anticipation of today. We had to be at Patel's office early so that Rich coud "make a deposit" and they could wash it and get it ready for the IUI. The procedure took literally one minute and Dr. Patel just had me lay there for 10 minutes before we could leave. I just kept visualizing my ovaries and the sperm doing what they're supposed to do and that I would have a baby. The nurse told me to start the progesterone on Wednesday. It's supposed to help keep me from miscarrying. She also told us to have as much sex as we could tonight and tomorrow to increase our chances. Rich, of course loved that prescription!! So now we start our 2 week wait until we can take a pregnancy test. It will be incredibly hard to wait the whole 2 weeks but they told us to not test before the 22nd. So....keeping our fingers crossed!!!!

Saturday June 4, 2011

Today was the big day...we went for the ultrasound this morning. We got great news! I had 2 mature follicles in my right ovary & 1 in my left. They all measured 19-21 mm so that was awesome news! Dr. Patel also said that my uterine lining looked really good too so he said we could do the IUI on Monday!! I have been on cloud 9 all day with excitement! This evening I had to do the trigger shot to jumpstart my ovulation. It was the first time I had to give myself a shot but it was no big deal. We are keeping our fingers crossed and prayers going that this IUI will work on Monday...

Friday, June 3, 2011

Tomorrow is a big day! We go in to the doctor's office to get an ultrasound of my follicles again. This is a big one because we are hoping the Clomid did its work and stimulated follicles in my ovaries. If all looks well, we will proceed with the insemination on Monday. I will have to give myself an injection of HCG tomorrow night to trigger the ovaries to drop an egg so that its ready for Monday. I am so nervous and excited to see how my body progressed. I just hope and pray that my follicles are good and ready. I will feel so let down and I don't want to disappoint Rich too.

Wednesday June 1, 2011

Today was my last day of Clomid. It hasn't been too bad except for the pain in my ovaries, especially the right ovary. It's this dull, aching pain that comes and goes. I just hope and pray it means that I'm growing some great follicles! I had my second acupuncture visit today and it was fabulous! She put on a recording for me to listen to while I had my treatment that helped me visualize what the Clomid was doing for me. It was very relaxing. She put the needles in this time to help ease the ovary pain and direct blood flow into the uterus. She also gave me an abdominal massage to help also and it did! My ovaries felt so much better and I felt very relaxed. I really look forward to my treatments each week now! I get my final blood draw before my IUI tomorrow morning and I hope the numbers look great!